Drumul spre nicaieri…
Arhivă pentru mai, 2007
Entry for May 21, 2007
Posted in Uncategorized on mai 21, 2007 by lala26Vreau sa ma trezesc cu sufletul gol, cu creierul gol.Sa nu mai am amintiri, sa mai simt, sa nu mai cred. Mi-e greu sa ma regasesc, mi-e greu sa nu simt, mi-e greu sa trec peste, mi-e greu sa nu visez. Imi urasc visele, imi urasc capacitatea de a visa …pentru ca in vise totul e foarte frumos sau foarte urat si greu de suportat.
Si fiecare moment cenusiu din viata ma face sa ma intreb ce vreau, ce caut, pentru ce traiesc. Si ma framant cautandu-ma, cautandu-mi un sens si mi se pare ca nimic nu e destul, ca nimic nu e cum trebuie…
Sad mood, heart-breaking mood, sufocating mood….
Entry for May 13, 2007
Posted in Uncategorized on mai 13, 2007 by lala26Am tot sperat ca nu vei fi acolo. Nu ma gandisem la momentul asta pana cand nu am vazut… Flori uscate si lumanari care mai palpaiau inca. M-am chinuit o gramada sa o aprind pe a mea. Mainile imi tremurau si simteam ca ma sufoc. ma gandeam ca intr-un fel tu nici macar nu ai trait pentru ca nu ti-ai dorit niciodata cu adevarat sa o faci. si nu pot sa nu ma intreb, retoric evident, a existat cineva care putea face ceva? ..destin frant si zbuciumat…si multa singuratate…s-atata zbucium si durere…
Mi-am adus aminte de momentul cand mi-ai daruit crucea pe care o purtai tot timpul si la care tineai foarte mult. Mi-ai spus ca mi-o dai ca sa ma protejeze. Te-am intrebat: „dar tu?”, „eu nu am nevoie.” O am si acum, am luat-o la toate examenele si a fost langa mine in toate momentele grele. Nu o sa o pierd…niciodata….Si amintirea va ramane, mereu acolo, undeva, in suflet…
Entry for May 08, 2007
Posted in Uncategorized on mai 8, 2007 by lala26Si a fost 1 mai in vama. Nu apucasem sa scriu despre asta pantru ca nu am gasit starea necesara.Nici acum nu o am, asa ca….
Entry for May 03, 2007
Posted in Uncategorized on mai 3, 2007 by lala26I light a candle in your memory ‘cause i can’t find the words…RIP,my friend!
Some of us think they are forever, some of us are just not made for this fuckin’ world and some of us live because we don’t have the guts to die.
"The god of deception
a man with your face
see him still wondering
searching for your grave
needles called luster
it's only a one night stand
and you are six feet under
dead by your own hand
as you lost your destination
something drilled holes in your soul
it's time to meet your maker
raise the relief on your temple
as you lost your destination
something drilled holes in your soul
it's time to meet your maker
raise the relief on your temple
make them blame themselves
regret the deceased
until the truth kills it's novelty
attrition of their beliefs
as you lost your destination
something drilled holes in your soul
it's time to meet your maker
raise the relief on your temple
it's the pain that calls the tune
those heartbreaking moments
mislaid it all
all the happiness
you can die at your leisure
make them blame themselves
regret the deceased
until the truth kills its novelty
attrition of their beliefs" (Amorphis)